The journey of the Rebel Entrepreneur and the Inner Critic

RANDOM INTERNAL DIALOGUE:

C- “Not the best idea to launch a new course in the peak of school holidays, Donna- You didn’t really think that one through, did you? You rushed it… you could have sold so much more if you just waited until everything was perfect.”

C- “You should be writing more, livestreaming more… what are you doing? Do you even want to do this? You’re not focused enough, not good enough… Maybe you’re not really cut out for this success thing? Maybe you should quit and get a j.o.b, look after kids or something- you’re good at that!”

R- “Fuck your excuses, I’m not buying em…I’ll do what I love, whenever I choose- creating and sharing my art has never about the money anyways. This is a longterm investment. I will succeed, because I am successful”

C- “You’ve bitten off more than you can chew, you’re going to burnout. This is silly… Are you sure this is the right thing to be doing right now, I means a silly Majick bootcamp… really? All this time, energy and research… for this?”

R –“Um… I’m literally made to keep creating all this epic stuff and open to new ideas everyday… it’s just what I do. Majick can change the world… you don’t even know how its all interconnected to like, EVERYTHING!”

C- “It’s 1am, GO TO SLEEP, Donna. This can all wait. It’s not that important anyway, you can do it another day. You sound tired, people will think (insert XYZ brutal remarks) about you”

R- *inhaling motivate oil blend* “NO!!! I’m totally in aligned flow… what’s coming through me right now is sooo good! I can’t NOT do this… I was born for it”

C- “Ok, don’t say I didn’t warn you… You’re going to be soooo tired tomorrow, the kids are going to wake up soon and you’re going to struggle through the day and be all cranky. You’re pregnant, you’re not wonder woman you know, slow down. You need to rest more you should stop all this course creation stuff and simplify everything- you’re working too much. you’re too optimistic. Why don’t you wait until next year to do all this.”

R- “Oh fuck off would ya… I’ll be fine! What if I am on the cusp of creating something incredibly life changing, but I listened to you instead and didn’t do it. I don’t care if it’s not polished and perfect… I’m not and I’m totally ok with that!”

… Wakes up in the morning feeling refreshed, focuses, inspired and energised as fuck!

**Put’s on cape and cruises through the day**

Tralalalalalala- KAPOW!

Rebel 1- Critic- 0

Sometimes you literally have to consciously IGNORE that nagging voice… and power on through!

You can live a life that you CHOOSE… and break free of the shackles of that sometimes believable inner critic.

It becomes SO MUCH LOUDER when you are on the brink of a big transition or breakthrough… that’s when you ave to stay vigilant and focused on your goal, because it want’s to keep you safe and comfortable in the “known” even if that is full n struggle street.

Sometimes I like to troll my own inner critic because it’s funny… sometimes I speak to it compassionately and then assign it a new task to focus on.

Sometimes I put on my headphones, crank my music and drown it out completely.

If I kept listening to that voice… I wouldn’t be where I am today, that’s for sure

FULL TRANSFORMATION COMES AT A COST… GET USED TO IT!

You say you want to change.

You’re so ready for it… you know somethings gotta give and you’re willing to do what needs to be done to succeed

You set your goals. Write in your journal.

You visualise the life you truly want and desire to experience.

You go to the healing workshops.

You sign up for the retreats.

You pay for the programs.

Adopt a new mindset

You start out enthusiastically and fully show up… life is feeling good, you feel activated and inspired to truly believe that anything is possible… you see the potential reality and align to it.

You can feel the momentum build.

But then something happens and you stall.

Somewhere deep inside you’ve chosen to put the brakes on.

You procrastinate like a motherfucker just at that pivotal moment of breakthrough.

Time and time again this happens despite your best intentions

And you can’t help but wonder why?

Well deep down you might actually be self sabotaging your success because you are afraid of what its going to cost you.

And anything worth creating… anything that is going to align you with your Souls desire and freedom will come with a high price to pay because of how valuable it is to you.

It will cost you your identity of who you think you are right now.

It will cost you your comfort zone and your focused attention.

As you shift into the true… things will naturally shift around you, sometimes in dramatic ways.

You may lose out in the process.

Your relationships will be tested.

Your career/work path will be shaken.

Your beliefs will be tested.

This can be unnerving and even painful as you watch things crumble around you.

You see when you choose to create a more authentic and truer reality aligned with your Souls purpose, anything that is not in alignment with it, will fall away.

This is the price you pay, but it does pay off in the end.

I used to be so paralysed by fear of losing my relationship to the shift.

Losing my peace and presence as a mother.

Losing my health and vitality in service to the big purpose work I am called to do.

It would be so consuming that I would question if it was even worth it?

Deep down I knew my brain was simply trying to keep me safe in the known…even if it wasn’t the best place to be, my struggles had become predictable.

How funny!

Playing small, self sabotaging and rebelling against my success became the normal way to function…even though I knew it was a futile attempt at stalling the inevitable shift that I had willed into form.

It became a comedy because I realised that by disabling the natural flow of energy, and resisting the changes out of believing the worst case scenario … it was actually costing me MORE than if I simply got out of my own way and did the thing!

Rejecting my role as a leader.

Rejecting the financial abundance that has been trying to make its way to me

Rejecting the activated state of being which feeds my creativity and vitality

Rejecting and rebelling against my success on all levels was ACTUALLY ruining my life and creating tension in my relationship.

Disrupting my sleep.

Disturbing my peace

Distracting my focus from what I WAS FUCKING BORN TO DO

So yes… transformational change will cost you, but it will cost you so much more in the long run if you resist it.

You will pay a high price for sure.

You’ll move away from toxic relationships and behaviours

You’ll lose your stories of being a victim

You’ll lose the ability to put up with and tolerate your boundaries being crossed.

You’ll let go of menial shit

You’ll let go of limiting beliefs

You’ll let the patterns of struggle and scarcity die in the ass
Because where you are destined to grow will create the environment needed for you to flourish.

Things will be easier because when you are clear on who you are, what you want and where you’re going… nothing will be able to stop you because you value it so much it becomes priceless…

Deep down you know it’s all worth it.

Deep down you know it is totally within reach.

Lean in.

Get uncomfortable

And move towards what your soul is calling you to.

Show up in the full spectrum of your being… own it unashamedly.

Those who truly see you and love you will support you and cheer you on…

Anyone else who tries to pull you off course to fulfill their own agenda are not worth your precious time anyway. If you lose them in the process… good riddance!

The highest price you will ever pay is the cost of having your dreams die inside.

It does not serve you or the world.

So get curious!

Take that first shaky step towards your dreams and desires… let the old path dissolve around you as you take a leap onto your soul aligned path.

It might feel challenging at first and I promise you that you will be held.

it will get easier

You will feel more alive and free than ever before.

Remember to Access the Wisdom Within.

<3 Donna

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Art: Out Of The Ashes by JoJoesArt

So, I have a little challenge for you today, should you choose to participate…

Simple and profound truths require your presence.

Take a moment to look at your hands.

Like really LOOK AT THEM…

both sides.

Turn them slowly, witness the way the light touches your skin and highlights all the lines.

Look at your palms, tune into the pattern of lines.

Notice how your hands feel.

weight

temperature

texture

think of all the ways these beautiful hands have served you.

What you have touched, caressed.

the flesh those fingertips have traced around.

the way you touch yourself, wash yourself, pleasure yourself and love yourself.

The ways these hands have protected you… the fists clenched in times of conflict, injustice, rage and deep emotional pain. The injuries they havesustained.

The playful ways these hands have expressed, tapping to rhythms, playing air guitar, playing peek-a-boo.. making you go invisible when you were a child hiding behind them…

The weird and wonderful ways these hands have expressed… making faces, picking noses, toenails, squeezed pimples and splinters…

Think of the ways these hands have nurtured, your children if you have them, your family members… times they have held onto another’s to console and support during hard times of grief and loss…

The times when they’ve rescued, and given of themselves in ways to serve the community in a selfless act of service and love for the greater good.

The ways in which they’ve helped you tap into your heart script and allowed the words to spill forth. The love letters and journal entries they have penned.

Think of they ways they have loved and lost.

What they have held onto, what they have let go of.

All the substances you have placed inside your body.

All the ways in which your hands have been unkind to yourself and others.

The richness and vibrancy of stories etched into your skin.

The spots and scars from a life lived inside your beautiful body.

The art they have created and unleashed from the depth of your soul. What youhave built with your bare hands, because you can… all the innovative ways youhave tried something and failed… and tried again…

All the food you have prepared

The seeds planted in the Earth, the tending to the soils and plants… to your heart… your ancestors…to the world…

The rituals and ceremonies they have prepared and facilitated.

The tears they have wiped and the blood they have touched.

Connect with your beautiful hands and place them together in prayer.

Take a deep breath and remember that you are alive.

That you have the ability to give and receive.

feel into the blood coursing through your veins and pay respects to all those that have walked before you.

And all of the ways that their hands had offered of themselves… and so on and so forth…

Feel the energy that your hands emit, however subtle or not so subtle that is for you.

Now… place your hands on your heart.

FEEL THAT

LISTEN…

boom boom…

boom boom…

boom boom…

the primordial beat of your ALIVENESS…

BREATHE YOURSELF IN…

In all of your humanness…

you are here…

in this space…

in this time…

and you matter.

You are enough.

Your being make a difference.

Your hands are such noble servants.

Now look at them again…

honour them

thank them…

offer your gratitude and appreciation for all that they do for you.

and ask yourself…

what will I use them for today, which will help me feel connected and inspired by my creativity and ability to serve the greater good.

Love is…

Remember to Access the Wisdom Within.

artwork by M.C Escher

You know those moments when you REALLY want to initiate a challenging conversation…

You’ve practiced what you are going to say a million times in your head, in front of the mirror, driving in the car, working on your tone and delivery. You find yourself waiting for the perfect moment to arise… waiting for a break in the conversation or some sort of mystical sign.

Well, more often than not, the right time never comes.

We’ve all been there.

Hanging on each word and breath, the stories dancing inside our mind as the other person is talking…we’ve probably lapsed in our complete presence at this point, truth is we aren’t intently listening, rather formulating our next move… the moment feels likes it coming…

coming…

coming…

coming…

Aaaaannnnnd it’s gone!

Slipping through the cracks of time.

Missed it!

Your Life is of your creation, you have to be bold and take it by the reigns to steer it where you would like to go. If cultivating transparency and intimacy is a core value of yours, then you will be faced with many opportunities to have “challenging” conversations as a way of growing, learning and speaking your truth.

These could range in a myriad of different topics but in my experience I have most often found them revolving around Relationship, Sex, Money, Emotions, Honesty, Personal Needs, Politics and Religion.

Most of the time you stay silent out of fear.

Fear of not knowing how the person will receive what you have to say, not wanting to hurt anyone or be misunderstood, especially if the nature of what you have to say is emotionally charged or if circumstances are creating tension in your relationships.

Cultivating and refining the ability to express yourself clearly and authentically can be a particularly interesting challenge in and of itself, though it is absolutely imperative if you want to live a life of integrity and deep connection to your Souls purpose

Embodying your truth with integrity, with respects to how your communication is received is even trickier… There are many dynamics involved and of course context is key!

I’ve come to realise that the hardest part about having a challenging conversation is actually initiating it in the first place!

You’ve got something really important that you need to speak.

But you don’t know what to do…

Where to start?

Once you are engaged in conversation though, it becomes easier to flow with the energy as it passes through. Even if sometimes it doesn’t always go down so well.

When you are in dialogue with someone and you feel that pull, that lump in your throat or the urge to speak and to steer the conversation to that pressing issue that has been consuming your thoughts, take the initiative to open to it, receive it and flow with it. Even if it means taking direct action by stating,

“This is hard for me, but I need to have a challenging conversation with you, are you willing to have a chat about it now? If not, when would be a better time?”

By stating your intention and asking if the other person is open to engaging in the conversation can prepare the safe psychological space for the conversation to happen, without the effect of reactive shock.

It has definitely worked for me!

This not only prepares your partner in conversation, but creates the context for what is to follow… it probably isn’t going to be easy to hear.

You have to remember that conversation is a choice, and it will always work better with willing participants.

You might find it beneficial to set the context and parameters for the conversation to take place, especially if it will lead to confrontation or expressing emotions which could trigger someone into a reactive mode. In any case, being mindful of where you, and your partner are at emotionally, as individuals, is a great way to see whether it is going to be beneficial to have the conversation now, or at a later time. Perhaps the conversation is very emotionally charged and so talking in a public place can help to diffuse the possibility of physical or verbal conflict.

Of course, there is a fine line between gauging the emotional undercurrents with compassion and bypassing the whole experience out of fear.

It is always important to engage in SAFE practice of non-violent communication. Sticking to facts so as to not enter into conflict by way of emotional projection and accusation.